I see all these people lives normal and mundane, yet they still smile. I think sometimes that's what I want, but all I feel is pain. I have plenty of reasons to be happy, A wife who loves me, A son who smiles at the sound of my voice. When people ask why I'm sad or angry I tell them it's hard to explain. It's a single feeling deep inside me. All I am is pain. I am so fucking hard to explain.