My world shook with a sudden and violent force. Losing my balance, i hurriedly searched for your broad fatherly shoulders to hold on to and in that split second of falling hard towards the unforgiving solid ground,  i was again reminded of your absence. A void that can never be filled. So i fell flatly without a struggle. Not eager to ever get up... But i got up. Got tired of the sand in my mouth and eyes, wich have become another reminder of you mother said i have your eyes. Screamed your names out loud! loud ENOUGH to break the air. Never got a reply or that lousy nearly-close-to-extinction letter. So i fed myself a spoonful of lies maybe that's just my left brained attitude trying to have an explanation for everything i'll probably never understand. To you, who showed a clean pair of heels when the sky fell. Bound to return when the dust has settled.   Â