- Scattering your ashes upon an open field I wonder did you ever know how I feel. Forty two years of frustration and pain I remember the times you drove me away - Secrets and lies kept hidden in your heart Did you know how much it tore me apart? Not facing the truth letting sleepy dogs lie When you passed away, nobody cried - Had me believe I was the child your dream But I was just a part of your fanciful scheme The anger and hate you aimed at my face All you wanted was someone to blame - Lost and confused with a soul split in two Just who you were, nobody really knew Schizophrenic paranoia clouded your mind Unfortunately for you, life was so unkind? -