I was a mother since I was little, Always playing with dolls, Feeding, washing, laughing, Pretending I was a Mum. I was a mother since I was little, Always helping my own, Cleaning, organising, faffing, Pretending I was a Mum. I was a mother since I was little, Always caring for others, Hugging, talking, mending, Pretending I was a Mum. I was a mother before I began trying, Always waiting for you, Wishing, dreaming, searching, Pretending I was a Mum. I was a mother through years of heartache, Always hoping for you, Crying, sleeping, fighting, Pretending I was a Mum. I was a mother when you grew inside me, The happiest I’d ever been, Smiling, feeling, living, Finally, I had become a Mum. I was a mother when your heart stopped beating. Always. Forever. I’ll be. Empty. Alone. Afraid. I was a mother.