I was always a square doughnut never felt I fitted in not posh enough for grammar school friends not common enough to mix at work. I was always lonely from five to fifty always an oddity if people said they knew me I did not believe them if they wanted to date me I wondered why. Why did I never notice the common ground with other people on little things that gave clue to large? Why did I not understand that warts and all I'm allowed just to be!