I don't know where I am, I'm not sure what I'm doing. The roads I walk are winding, my mind's in utter ruin. Each day's a different story, not one of them the same. I can't control the outcome, you might say that I'm insane. I like to think I'm normal, I know that's just not true. I just can't express my feelings, when I try I just turn blue. I barely feel human, I don't feel like I'm present. It's a really awful feeling, it's really quite unpleasant. Are my friends my friends, I really just don't know. One moment they seem to care for me, but then they seem to go. I feel so awfully lonley, in the big wide world alone. I don't know where I am, I don't know where to call my home. One day my mind will settle, I'll know exactly where I'm going. For now I'll endured the struggle, getting older and mentally growing. A.D