Why do I feel so brave all the sudden Why do my beloved anxiety leave me behind when it feels like it What happened with “stay away from people at all times, you can’t trust them†Why do I wanna go on dates with strangers Meet up with old friends Why do I answer messages But I still don’t start conversation What happened with the “ehhhh†before I answer to if I want a bag or not with the stuff that I went to the store and bought all by ‘myself’ Am I overcoming my diagnosis? Is this what it feels like being clean Being clean of anxiety No, it can’t be, at least not yet Being clean is being happy No matter how brave I might feel at times I’m still not happy I’m not clean of depressed and hatred