My troubled life

                        My Troubled Life:
                              Jasmine’s Part Of The Story:                                  Summary: Jasmine
        There are many groups in High School. Jocks, Goths, Popular, Nerds, Geeks, Mathletes, Hippy’s, Bee’s ( aka spellers), Drama Geeks, and so many others. But then there’s us The Freaks. We didn’t choose the name but that’s what everyone calls us. So that’s basically who we are. There’s four of us. There’s me Jasmine, then there’s Ella , Liam/Lilly, and Angel. We all have a lot in common. But the one thing we really have in common is that all of your lives are a living Hell. 
        I have depression and I hurt myself. I’m also suicidal. Ella has depression and she’s gay. Liam is transgender he’s still trying to get us to call him, I mean her Lilly. Then there’s Angel she’s like me suicidal and has depression. So that’s us the Freaks. Please listen to our stories. They are all important.


            Chapter 1: Introduction
    Hey guys it’s me Jasmine.As you know I have depression and I’m suicidal. Oh and did I forget to mention my life is a living Hell and sucks a lot. Oh and I’m in a group at school that everyone but us calls The Freaks. Or The Losers, The Freak Show. Today is our first day of Senior year of High School. But before I get to our story of Senior year. Let me give you my backstory. I will also give you The Freaks backstory.
       Okay then let’s start with my story from the beginning.I’m not sure where to start. Um I guess I will start in Kindergarten. Well back then my parents and sister still couldn’t care less about me. They didn’t support me or anything. I know I know you think it’s all in my head. That they really do care about me and all that crap.
       Well it’s not in my head! The only thing they ever did for me was. Give me money each month for clothes, food,etc. They never put a meal on the table. They never went out and bought clothes with me. They never took me on vacation. They never really talked to me. They never went to my school events or any of my other events. Like school assemblies,my volleyball games, and every other events. 
       The only thing they ever went to was parent teacher meeting. But every time they went if I got anything below a A+ they got mad at me. They then through my report card away. Then they called me names like dummy, loser, worthless etc. That’s the only time they really talked to me. That and when they call me names daily and yell at me. They also never celebrated my birthday. They also never gave me any gifts on my birthday or Christmas. 
        The only person my parents treated right was each other and my sister.She is now in her Junior year of High School. My sister was pretty, smart, and got straight A+’s.She also dressed the way my parents thought looked good. That was probably because my parents went shopping with her. They put food on the table for her. They went to all her events. They took her on vacation. They complemented her they cared about where she was and what she was doing.
         They talked to her when ever they got the chance. They even celebrated her birthday with her. They even gave her gifts on Christmas and her Birthday!. So basically she gets everything I don’t have. She is also mean, annoying, insulting, etc. But that’s only when she talks to me. So anyway ever since Kindergarten my family, some of the teachers,students, etc. teased me and bullied me. It’s been that way since day one.
      I’m not even kidding I have video proof. Of the day I was born. When I came out my mom said and I quote “ she looks like a horrible dum girl to me”. Then my dad said “ yup she looks like disappointment to me”. Isn’t that just the sweetest thing to say to a new born!
      They have been horrible to me since day one. That’s one of the main reasons I have depression. Also a big reason I’m suicidal. The other reasons are I’m naturally depressed, I get bullied a lot!, I get teased, I get insulted and called names, I get beat up, etc. 
       There are so many other reasons to. I hate school, home, local teen hangouts, friends houses etc. Those are all places I get bullied and beat up. Oh and If you’re asking “ why friends houses?”. That’s because my friends families don’t care about me or their own kid.
        I hate my life so much, I wish it would just end. The one thing that strangely helps a little is cutting myself. It helps because it takes away the emotional and mental pain for a little bit. My friend Angel does that to.
         Speaking of friends I never had friends until Sophomore year of High School. The Freaks started on November 13th two thousand thirteen. It was a Wednesday and I had just gotten the shit beaten out of me in the school parking lot. I also had just gotten called a bunch of names. Like loser, dummy, ugly, no good, worthless, you should die in a ditch, etc.
         So after that shit happened like it usually did. I went into the bathroom crying and I went into one of the stalls. Then I took my knife out of my backpack. Then i rolled up my sleeve and started cutting myself. But after around three minutes or so a girl walked in. She had long wavy dark red ruby colored hair. She had brown eyes and she looked around my age.
        When she turned around looking at my stall. There were tears rolling down her face. She also looked like she had just gotten beaten up. Then she looked at my knife. Then she gave a small smile then said “ I cut myself too, I just got beat up again! Oh I forgot to mention my name is Angel. What’s yours?”. 
       As soon as I heard those words I knew we would be friends. Then I remember I said “ I’m Jasmine, I also just got beat up. That’s why I’m in here right now.” Angel had nodded and said “ yeah life is a living Hell isn’t it?”. I nodded and said “ yeah , do you have any friends or someone to talk to? Does your family care about you?”.
        Which to you might seem like a weird thing to say but it wasn’t. Then she frowned and said “ no do you?”. I shook my head then we both said at the same time. “ Do you want to be friends?!”. We then both laughed then I walked over to her and we hugged. And that is how I met my first friend. Also the first member of “ The Freaks” besides me of course. 
          Then we met Ella. It was December 12th 2013. We were walking in the school’s parking lot. When we saw a girl with long straight light brown hair with blue eyes. Getting the living shit beaten out of her in the school parking lot. We both looked upset then Angel said “ let’s go help her!”. I had nodded then we started to walk over. We knew we probably would get our asses kicked. But we thought we should try to help. 
       As we came closer to where the girl was getting beat up. We heard them saying things like. “ Being gay is stupid”. “ Eww look at that little gay monster”. We heard a lot of insults about being gay. I knew I thought that was wrong to tease someone for being themselves.
        Then when we got close enough I said “ hey! Leave her alone! She doesn’t deserve this! No one deserves this!”. Then five of them looked at us then laughed and said “ oh hi losers! It’s Jasmine and Angel right? Have you come to get beaten up again?”.
           Then they laughed then Angel said “ no we didn’t come to get beaten up again! We came to help out this poor girl.” Then Angel punched one of them in the stomach. Then I did the same thing. We fought through them until we got to the girl.
        We then ran with her to the other side of the parking lot. We were all panting hard then the girl said. “ Oh my god thank you! I didn’t think anyone was nice enough to help out.” We both smiled then I remember I said “ well we never had anyone to help us out but each other. We get beat up by those jerks all the time! Oh I forgot to tell you my name is Jasmine”. 
        Then I remember Angel said “ I’m Angel, what’s your name?”. She smiled weakly then she said “ I’m Ella!”. We nodded then I said “ so you’re gay?”. Ella nodded then said “ um yeah…”. Angel smiled and said “ don’t be ashamed of who you are. Being gay is no worse than being straight. Love is Love Ella.”
      I remember that she looked at us like we were the best people ever. I remember feeling great for the first time ever right then. She then said “ you guys really think so?”. We nodded then I said “ yeah we do think that. Do you?”. Ella nodded and said “ well yeah but no one else I have met or known. Thinks it’s okay to be gay!”. 
     Angel frowned then said “ does your family know? Do they care or support you?”. I remember she looked upset when Angel asked that. Then Ella had said “ they cared and supported me until they found out. Now they hate me and can barely stand to look at me. They call me names, and they want nothing to do with me. I have no friends or anyone to talk. My life just really really sucks. It feels like a living Hell.”
      We had both nodded and I said “ our families don’t care or support us either. We aren’t gay but we both have depression and we both are suicidal. We also cut ourselves.” Then we rolled up our sleeves and showed her. I remember she looked a little horrified. Than she said “ so your life is a living Hell to.” Angel nodded then said “ yup it is, my own dad even beats me up.”
       I remember I looked over at Angel and said something like. “You never told me he beat you up!”. I remember she shrugged and said “ oh I forgot sorry”. We both shrugged then I had said “ do you want to be our friend?”. Ella had smiled and said “ yeah sure, you guys seem nice and know one else will be my friend”. Well I think that’s what she said but whatever. And that’s how we met Ella.
       Then one day early February of 2014 we met Liam who is now going by Lilly. Lilly back then was confused and didn’t really understand who she really was. She knew she felt more like a girl then a guy. But she didn’t get why she had boy parts then.
        But when she heard about some transgender boy on TV. She realized who she was. But she needed to go get some girl stuff. Anyway we actually met him I’m sorry I met her in the hallway. She was being teased by some of those popular girls. They were and still are the most popular kids in school.
         They are Maggie she’s the leader, also known as “M Bitch” by us only. Then there’s Maya one of her evil side kicks. Then there’s her other evil side kick Macey. They are truly evil! Anyway so we saw Lilly being bullied by Maggie and her evil side kicks. So we walked up although we were all nervous.
       Then Ella said “ leave him alone!”. Then I swear evil music was playing in the air. Then the three evil bitches swung around and then Maggie said something like. “ Excuse me Freaks but what did you just say to us? Because it sounded like you were telling us what to do! Well as you should know by now I am the only one who tells others what to do. Not you Losers!”.
      Then i remember everyone staring at us the Angel said “ we said to leave him alone Maggie!”. Maggie had looked so pissed off when Angel had said that. But as she finally sorta gave in. She then said “ take the Freak then but you will pay dearly”. Then Liam walked towards Angel, Ella, and I but before she had been able to get to us. I remember Macey had kicked Liam’s leg. Once we had gotten further down the hall. I had said to her. “ So why were those bitches bothering you?”. Lilly who was going by Liam at the time said “ you won’t laugh or call me a freak if I tell you?”. I had shook my head and said “ we would never laugh at you!”. He now she had smiled then said “ I’m transgender, I know I don’t look like it. But I am, I just don’t have any girl clothes or makeup”.
      I remember that we had gotten him some girl clothes and makeup that day. I remember that she walked into school with us the next morning. Wearing girl clothes and makeup she also had a stuffed bra.
So that’s how the “The Freaks” were formed.
      Anyway you might be wondering why i am writing this book. Well I’m typing it but whatever. Anyway it was Lilly’s idea. She thought we should write or type our stories. So we could combine them some day and make a book.

           Chapter 2: Present Day 2/17/16
     I sat up and stretched knowing that I am now going to live another day in Hell. I then looked down at my phone and I scrolled through my notifications. There were a lot of hate comments on social media. A lot of Cyber Bullying so on and so forth. Then I found three texts.
         They were from Lilly, Ella, and Angel. We always had group messages most of the time. And this was one of them. The messages all had all been sent a few seconds ago. This is what our conversation went. Warning ( we are very negative people sometimes).
           Lilly: How are you guys this “wonderful” morning?
           Ella: horrible as normal. My mom even said to me “ hello Gay!!! Apparently that’s my name now. They some how think being gay is a sin and that I’m summoning the devil by being gay or something. Good grief!
           Angel: that really sucks Ella I wish they supported you. But anyway to answer your question Lilly my morning is horrible. My dad beat me up from 3pm to 3am. He used so many things. He used whip’s,his hands. ropes, metal rods, wooden planks,etc. Then he woke me up by hitting me with a metal rod.
           Me: that’s horrible Ella and Angel. My morning isn’t much better either. I just woke up and I already feel depressed. I think I’m going to go cut myself now. Bye see you at school.
           Ella: Bye Cul8r
           Lilly: Cul8r
           Angel: bye, and I think I’ll do the same thing.
           I sighed then took my knife and my bucket and started cutting my wrist. While watching the blood trip down into the bucket. Then I dried my wrist off after a few minutes of cutting myself. Then I got dressed then I grabbed my lunch money. Then I walked into the kitchen. Where my sister and my parents were eating their breakfast. They had eggs, bacon, pancakes, and orange juice. But of course there was none for me. All there was was a ten dollar bill and the keys to a car. 
      It didn’t look like my parents keys or my sisters. My mom then rolled her eyes and said. “ Those keys are to your new car. We only bought it for you because we hate you and we want you out of the house. As much as possible so we all thought if we gave you more freedom by buying you a car. We could barely see your sorry ass. So will you please hurry along you dumb piece of shit.”
      I sighed then said “ bye!”. Then as I took the money and keys. My sister called out “ bye freak”. Then my dad called out “ bye loser, oh we forgot to tell you! You aren’t allowed to live here for the rest of the week. That means you can come back Monday. Okay freak?”. I was used to kicking me out for a few days. One time they kicked me out for a month. Then I shrugged “ wait can I come by after school and pack?”. 
         My mom rolled her eyes like I was asking her to give me a million bucks. Then she sighed and said “ you can I guess but only if you come at no later than three thirty. Because we will be home by then.” I nodded then left. I walked to the driveway where i saw a shiny black mini cooper. I smiled and even though i hated the reason they gave me the car. I loved the car it self. 
         I jumped in and turned the keys and started driving. I got my licence two years ago. When I was sixteen, I am now eighteen as of last month. Angel, Ella, and Lilly are also eighteen so we can all drive together in my car or any of our cars. As you know my parents bought me mine. Ella bought her’s she saved up. Lilly’s grandma bought her’s. Angel’s mom bought her her’s before she died.
            Anyway so I drove down to the Starbucks that was a block away. I hoped that know one I disliked from school was there. I hated public places teens went. It just meant getting beat up and bullied. Anyway I finally got there, there was this dumb slow car in front of me. So it took me a while to get there. I parked my new car and walked in. I looked around to see who was there then I saw Angel and Ella a few people in front of me in line. Then I walked  to them. I stood behind them and said imitating Maggie. “ Hey freaks fancy seeing you here!”.
                I apparently was really good at impressions. Because I saw Ella and Angel tense up. Then they turned around with frowns on their faces. But when they saw it was me they started laughing in relief. Then they both hugged me and we were all laughing. Then Ella said “ not funny Jasmine, not cool”. I laughed and said “ that was awesome!”. Then they got to the front and order our breakfast. Then we went outside to a table and sat down. Angel smiled and said “ how did you get here?”. I smiled and said “my parents bought me a car. They wanted me to be outside of the house as much as possible so they gave me a car. So they wouldn’t have to see my sorry ass.”
                Ella frowned and said “ well that sucks! I mean it’s great you got a car. But still.” I nodded then I couldn’t help but stare at Angel. Her face was bruised she had one black eye. Her arms were bruised and so were her legs. I felt so bad for her but there was nothing I could do. She always looked beat up. All of us did but she looked really bad today.
              Angel frowned and said “ what?!”. I frowned and said “ he really beat you up last night? Huh!”. Angel nodded and said “ yeah! It sucks but there’s nothing I can do! I just wish I could die.” Ella frowned then said “ please don’t say that it’s bad enough you two cut yourselves!”. Angel and I just shrugged and then I said “ well it’s true we would rather die than live through this Hell.” Angel nodded and said “ yeah I agree! I mean I don’t want either of you to die. But I want to die. Plus I might well say it I’m thinking it.”
         Ella frowned then said “ oh shit!”. Angel and I looked confused and said “ what?!”. Then Ella shoosh us then said “ lower your voices,it’s the BBW’s”. We immediately went silent. The BBW’s were the Big Bad Wolves. The scariest, meanest, bullies alive that we knew. They were all so in a gang called The Wolves. It was were rumored that they have killed people. It’s probably even true. The BBW’s always enjoyed beating us up. We were lucky if they just teased us.
        They all were wearing black leather jacket’s with a picture of a wolf on the back. They were scary as fuck. Everyone in town knew about them and were scared of them. Anyone who wasn’t scared of them was a idiot! We kept our heads down and started to leave. But just as we reached the door. The leader yelled out us and everyone froze. His name was Max they nicknamed him Mad Max.
        He yelled “ hold it right there Freaks!”. We all froze terrified. They were the only bullies we were very scared of. We knew if we ran we would pay the price. We rather get beat up then pay the price by running. They slowly turned around with sweat running down their faces and backs. Then The BBW’s walked over it sounded like the whole floor was shaking.
         They walked up and Mad Max spit at the floor in front of them. There were ten of them. Eight boys and two girls. The eight boys basically dated both of them. Those two girls were real sluts. But we would never say that to their faces.Then one of the girl’s stepped next to Mad Max and put one of her arms around his shoulders. Her name was Blair she was the scariest of the two girls. She was also Mad Max’s favorite. Ivy was also scary as Hell to.
           Then Blair said eviley but in Ella’s opinion sexy and evil. “ Well well well what do we have here The Freaks came to visit. Oh wait The Freaks is way too nice of a name. What about Sad little no good shit head losers freaks!!! Now that sounds more like it. Let us see there’s Jasmine the depressed suicidal girl. Angel the other depressed suicidal freak. Then there’s Lilly I mean Liam whatever. Who isn’t hear. Then there’s that little gay freak Ella”.
         Then Blair picked Ella up by her collar and raised her up. To her face then she brought Ella close their lips almost touched. But everyone could tell that they weren’t then Blair threw Ella onto the floor. Ella then stood up shaking. 
        Then Max said “ come on freaks let’s go outside. Move it!”. We nodded and rushed outside then they pushed us out back. Then one of the other Wolves named Spike said “ back up against the walls with your hands in the air.” We quickly did what they said afraid out of our minds.
     We all gulped then Max said “ Angel step forward.” Then he looked at Blair and one of the other boys named Edgar. Then he barked an order he said “ Blair pin Ella to the ground. Sit on her and make her watch me and her friend. Edgar sit on Jasmine and make her look over here to”.
     They nodded and did what he said. Then Angel walked forward and then Max said “ take off your shirt!”. Angel nodded still shaking and took off her shirt. She very skinny and had bruises and cuts all over. She stood there shaking in her shorts and bra. Then Max said “ did we do that or someone else?!”. Everyone laughed but Ella, Jasmine, and Angel. 
         Than Angel said “ you guys, other bullies, and my dad did this to me.” The Wolves laughed then Edgar said “ even her dad hates her!”. They all laughed again then Max said “ no matter what I do get back up!”. Then he kicked her with his big heavy boot in the stomach. He did that several times and every time he kicked her she spit out blood.
        Than he started punching her with his fists that felt like boulders being thrown at her. She almost fell down. But then she just stood there with blood coming out of her mouth. Then he started choking her until he felt like stopping. Then he dropped her on the hard ground. Then Ivy throwed him a plank of wood. Then he said “ go into a crawling position!”.
    Angel nodded and did what he said. Her hands were in fists trying to ignore the pain. Then he took the wood plank and hit her several times on her ass. With the plank. She couldn’t help but scream . Every one inside the Starbucks winced. They all wanted to stop them but they were too afraid to.
       Then Max said “Blair give me Ella pin Angel down. Oh and Angel put your shirt on!”. Angel nodded and put her shirt on then she walked over to Blair. She then lowered herself down to the gravel and laid face down. Then Blair dragged Ella to Max. He then did the same thing he did to Angel to Ella. Then he did the same to Jasmine.
           Then they left us lying there coughing up blood. Ella was the first to stand up. Then she spat some blood in a near by trash can then she said. “ Does anyone want a free starbucks?”. Angel and I nodded weakly then Ella helped us up. We then walked back into the StarBucks. Everyone turned and stared at us. Then the manager ran up to us with towels and a first aid it.
         She handed us each a towel. We then wiped our mouths and cuts. Then she helped put on some band-aids. She didn’t have anything better. But she did give us pain killers. Then she said “ you poor kids no one deserves that shit.” We nodded then I said “ yeah it does.” Then she said “do you guys have families?!”. 
        We all nodded but then we all said “ but they don’t care about us! Or what happens to us.” Then she said “ if you want you can work here and live with me!”. We all couldn’t believe our ears. Then we nodded then Ella said “ wait can our friend Lilly live with you to. She gets beat up all the time. But she was lucky enough to not be here.”
       The manager nodded and everyone in the Starbucks clapped. Than Angel said “ well we have to go to school. But we will be back after school.” The manager nodded in shock then said “ um okay I’m Lucy by the way. Do you guys want free frappuccino?”. We nodded then got our frappuccinos then left for school. Feeling weak and tired and in a lot of pain.

                 Chapter 3: School 
       Angel and Ella got into Angel’s car. Angel had picked Ella up. Then I got into my car and we drove off to school. We had to rush to get to school time. I looked at my phone and I saw it was eight o two am. School started in thirteen minutes. It would take me at least eleven minutes to get to school.
       Angel and Ella got there a few seconds before I did. I looked at my phone again and it was eight thirteen. I then swore under my breath. Then I ran up to Angel and Ella. We all like shit but it was the first day of school. There was no way we could afford to miss it. We walked up to the front doors and we saw Liam I mean Lilly sitting on the front steps.
      We always said if one of us was late all of us were late. We walked up to her she stood up. She looked us up and down. She only had a few bruises but we look liked we had just came back from the dead or a war or something like that. Then Lilly said a little worried “ holy shit you look like shit what happened?! This time?!”.
      We sighed even though it hurt to do so then we said “ The Wolves!”. Lilly sighed angrily then said “ aw that sucks! I’m glad I wasn’t there! But are you guys okay?”. I shrugged and said “ no! But as we usual have to. We have to just deal with it. Let’s get to class!”. We all nodded and walked to our first classes. I had Math with Ella. Maya Maggie’s evil side kick was also in that class.We also had deal with the bully gang The Tigers! Ughhhhh.
      Angel had History and Lilly had Science. Angel had to deal with Maggie, Blair, Ivy, Max, Edgar, and Spike in History. Lilly had to deal with Macey, and the five other wolves. Dexter, Jake, Shawn, Alex, and Scar. Anyway so we all went our separate ways and rushed to our classes. 
         When I walked in to my Math class with Ella. We were a minute late. Everyone turned around and stared at us. Maya smiled evilly at us and so did the Tigers! Then our Math teacher Mr.B looked a little horrified and said “ what the Hell happened to you two?!”. Ella looked like she had something in her mouth she need to spit out. Then she grabbed the trash can next to her spit some blood into it. Then I said “ well um The Wolves beat Ella, Angel, and I up. Behind a StarBucks this morning sorry we’re late.”
       Mr.B was our favorite teacher he and Mrs. A were the only nice teachers. Besides the principle and the lunch ladies. Then he said “ oh my god! The Wolves beat you up! I’m so sorry it’s fine that you’re late. There’s nothing I can do about what The Wolves did. They are way too powerful. But here take these three passes to the nurses and principals offices. Get Angel out of class and go to the nurses and principles.”
        We nodded then before we left the leader of the Tigers Joey. Said “ aw man I can’t believe it The Wolves beat us. To beating the Freaks this morning. Well I guess we’ll get them later.” Then everyone laughed and Mr.B looked angry and then said. “Give them a break haven’t you ruined their lives enough?! What have they ever done to you?.”
         Maya and The Tigers smirked then Maya said. “They deserve everything they get! As long as they are here in this town they will have to deal with us!”. The Tigers nodded then Joey said “ what they did was being born!”. Mr.B shook his head then Ella and I left. We walked down to get Angel in History.
         When we arrived we knocked on the classroom door. Mr.E ran the History class he was one of our least favorite teachers. He opened the door and said “ aren’t you two freaks supposed to be in Math?”. We both rolled our eyes and everyone laughed but Angel.
         Then Maggie and the few other Wolves in there said “ hey losers!”. Then I said “ we got passes for the nurses and principals office. We also have a pass for Angel. As you can see The Wolves beat us up!”. We all hated that even most of the teachers didn’t care. Angel then gathered her stuff and walked over to us and we walked over to the principal's office. We then walked in and our Principal Mrs.Harris. Looked up and when she saw what condition we were in she looked horrified. 
         Then she said “ um hi girls what happened this time. Is there any way I can help?!”. We frowned and I said “ unless you are not afraid of The Wolves I’m afraid not.” She gasped in horror then said “ The Wolves did this to you?! I’m so sorry but you’re right I can’t help you. Is there anything I can do though?”.
         We thought about it then said “ um maybe we could stay in her for the rest of class then go to lunch?”. Mrs. Harris nodded then said “ okay but go to the nurse's office first.” We nodded then went next door and went to go see the nurse.
       When the nurse saw us she shook her head and said “ who beat you up this time The Tigers? Or The Wolves?”. I smiled weakly and said “ The Wolves”. The nurse nodded said “ are you three alright?!”. Ella shook her head and said “ not really but we just have to deal with it like we always do. You know? Eat,go to school, get beat up, get depressed, get bullied, get hurt, sleep, start over the next day. That’s our life”.
         The nurse sighed and said “ yeah unfortunately there’s nothing I or anyone else can do about it. Even the Police don’t seem to do anything about it. Because no one reports The Wolves because they are to scared. But anyway so what can I do for you?”. Angel sighed then said “ can we have small buckets to spit in. We still have a lot of blood to spit out. Can we also get some painkillers and some warm food from the cafeteria?”.
         The nurse nodded and went to get what Angel had asked for. Once she had left Angel who was the strongest out of the four of us started crying her eyes out. Then we all started crying to. We were all in so much pain and it was extremely hard to keep it together. But some how we kept it together most of the time. Our arms hurt, our legs hurt, our chests and stomachs hurt. Our heads were killing us and our necks hurt. Our whole bodies hurt. 
          We also felt emotional pain and mental pain to. I don’t know what the other two were thinking right now but I was thinking. How it might be better if I died. I can’t stand to live this way! I can’t live to see my friends suffer!.
        Than Angel said “ I… I can’t live like this… not anymore… I just can’t… I don’t know what to do!... I wish life would be a whole lot better!... I just...I just want to....die!!!”. I nodded then said “ yeah I do to...I can’t live like this...not anymore….but there’s nothing...we can do!!! I want to die to”.
        Than Ella would normally tell us not to think or talk like that. Say that life can and will get better. Even though we knew she didn’t mean it. But then she said something we never ever thought she would say. She said “ I don’t blame you, wanting to die. Not anymore I want to die to! I’m sick of it! This is shit!”.
        We just sat there in shock as she kept talking. She then sighed and sniffled then said angrily “ let’s see! We live with a StarBucks manager! As of today we are eighteen and we can live on our own! But we don’t have enough money! We get beat up more than once every day! We get bullied, we all have depression! At least three of us are suicidal! We live in a place where no one cares about us. Everyone is scared to report The Wolves! What’s the point?!”.
       Both of our mouths dropped. I wiped the tears out of my eyes. Then I said “ you’ve never spoken like that! Ever! It’s kinda scary. But yeah that’s true what you said.” We all nodded the nurse walked back in. She handed us each a bucket. Then we all spit all that disgusting blood out of our mouths. I really don’t get vampires? Blood is disgusting, it tastes awful!!!
        She then gave us our painkillers and our food. We then ate the food. She also gave us cold water to help our throats. When we finished it was ten thirty. Lunch would be starting in forty minutes. So we then went back to the principal's office and sat down. Mrs. Harris sighed then said “ so what do you three want to do? play a board game? go on your phones?”.
       Angel sighed and said “ I’m going on my phone.” Ella and I nodded then we said “ yeah me too!”. Then we I went onto Twitter. I then scrolled through everything. Then after a little my mouth dropped. I saw a ton of videos of us getting beaten up. They were all posted by The Wolves, The Tigers, Maggie and her friends, and many other random people.
       There were many different captions and comments. Everyone was watching and resharing. The captions said things like. Three Freaks Getting What They Deserve For Being Born. Three Losers Getting It. Some Lame Shit Heads Getting Beat Up!.
       Let me show you the top comments.
             “ aren’t those girls those ugly,shitty,lame,loser,freak,bitches? Angel?Jasmine?Ella?”
             “yeah those are the freaks. They deserve everything they get. They are such lame bitches!!!”
             “Go Wolves!!! You’re doing a great job beating up those freaks!!!”
             “ go die Freaks!!!”
             “ die Freaks!”
      There were many other comments. Then I showed Angel and Ella. They looked extremely mad then they started sending me texts so they didn’t yell in Mrs. Harris. This was our conversation
            Angel: Those evil bitches! I hate them I hate them all why the fuck? Do they think this is okay???? It’s sick! I mean I’m shirtless on this video! How can people like a video about people getting beat up????
              Ella: They are the losers not us! I hate them so much! 
              Me: they are so horrible I hate this I hate it.
             Angel: I don’t care anymore I’m reporting the Wolves today after school. I’m also reporting The Tigers.To the Police. I am also going to report everyone who shared or commented on the video. To the Twitter people. I don’t care if I die trying but I’m going to try to fix this with  or without you.
           Ella: you’re crazy!!!!!!! I’m sorry but I can’t help you. I know I’m one of your best friends and friends should help each other. But I’m sorry I can’t do this I’m to scared.
          Angel: .... Okay…
          Me: Same here
          Angel: okay :( I’ll ask Lilly

                                 Chapter 4: Reporting
      Angel sighed then asked the principal. “ Can I leave early? I can’t be here right now?”. The principal hated sending students home. But she knew she should. She nodded then Angel grabbed her stuff and left. Then the lunch bell ringed and we walked over to the cafeteria.Lilly had already gotten her food and had went our usual table. Table 105 it was in the far right corner. Of the cafeteria.
       We got our food then we saw Angel walk over to Lilly. We figured she was asking her to join her report The Wolves and The Tigers to the police. We saw Lilly look shocked then scared then she shook her head. Then Angel left. We then sat down with Lilly. Lilly then said “ she’s insane! She’s going to get her and maybe us killed.” We nodded and then I said “ let’s hope not! I don’t know if I could live if she died!”.
         Ella and Lilly nodded then Lilly said “ I sorta feel bad about not going with her. What if she dies and the last thing I say to her was that she was crazy and that I couldn’t help her!”. Ella and I nodded then Ella said “I’m going to help her, I can’t just sit here.” Lilly nodded then said “ yeah me too”. I was so scared of what was to come then I said “ I’m coming to!”.
        Then we went straight to the principal's office. We then we got aloud to leave. We then rushed to our cars and rushed off to the police station. We all hoped she was still alive. And that The Wolves haven’t found out and hunted her down. When we got there we saw Angel’s car in the parking lot. Then we walked inside and saw Angel in a chair. Waiting for the police to be ready to talk to her.
          We then walked up to her and hugged her. She smiled then said “ you guys came!”. We sighed nervously then I said “ of course we did! But we are scared out of our fucking minds right now!”. Angel laughed then a police officer walked up and said. “Are guys ready to come and talk to me?”.
         We looked at each other then nodded and Ella said “ not really but let’s go!”. We all were very nervous but we have gotten this far. So we then walked into a office. Then the Police officer said “ okay girls my name is Officer Johnson. What is going on?! What happened to you guys?! Three of you look like you just had someone try to kill you! What are your names?”.
       We all were very very scared of The Wolves we just hoped they didn’t find out. Then I said “ um… my name is Jasmine. These are my best friends Angel, Ella, and Lilly. Um you have to understand that if the people we are reporting find out we are doing this. They will torture then kill us slowly.”
       Officer Johnson looked a little horrified and then he said in a serious tone. “ Who is going to kill you if they find out?! Who beat you up?! We will stop them!”. Angel shook her head and said “ everyone is afraid of them! No one has been willing to report them. Since they came to town four years ago. They are the most feared gang around.”
         The officer looked a little annoyed then said with his voice a little louder. “Who?!”. Then Ella said “ The Wolves! They have been beating us and others up for four years. We have video proof of them beating us up this morning. The other gang that beats us up is The Tigers”. Officer Johnson then said “ finally!”. We all looked confused then Lilly said “ finally, what?”.
        The officer sighed then said “ finally someone reports The Wolves and The Tigers! We aren’t allowed to go and arrest people. Without someone reporting them. We have been wanting to put them away for years. But we never had proof of what they were doing. And no one would dare report them.” We nodded then the officer said “ show me the video, I want to see what they did. But I was wondering have they done worse than what they did to you today?”.
        We nodded then I said “ they have done worse to us and others. They have even killed people. I’ve seen it! But they scared me into not saying a word about it.” The officer nodded then we showed him the video. He saw each of us getting beat up. He saw us being laughed at and called names. Then he saw Angel with her shirt off. Then he looked angry and said “ they are so evil. Who thinks it’s okay to do this?! How can they think it’s okay to make a video and post it?! How do people enjoy watching this shit happening to people?”.
         We nodded then he said “ are you guys okay?! That must have been so painful and terrible!!!”. We nodded then Angel said “ we are not okay, we hurt all over. Also it was very embarrassing, but as we normally do we just have to get over it. We just have to deal with it. We have been dealing with it for years.”
       Officer Johnson shook his head angrily then said “ does The Tigers do the same kinda things to you and others?”. Lilly sighed and said “ yeah but not as bad. We aren’t as scared of The Tigers. So what are you going to do about The Wolves and The Tigers?!”. Officer Johnson smiled then said “ we are going to get a bunch of police officers including myself. Then we will go to your school.”
        “ We will go into the classrooms where The Wolves and The Tigers are. Then we will threaten them with our guns. Then arrest those evil bastards. We also make sure they can never bother anyone again.” We all smiled and sighed in relief. Then I said “ you can really do that!”. he nodded then said “ yeah, but do they have guns?”. Ella shrugged then said “ I think they do but I have no idea if they bring it to school.”
            The officer nodded then  made a call. “ He said “ four girls just reported The Wolves and The Tigers. We need all of you to come with me to there school. To get them they might be armed and we know they are dangerous. It’s time to bring these horrible people to justice.” Then a few minutes later twelve other officers came in. Then one of them said “ let’s go get these evil disgusting Wolves and Tigers!”. Everyone nodded then they got into their police cars. We all got into our cars. Then we followed the police cars. 
         To our school when we got there. The Tigers and The Wolves happened to be skipping class. They were hanging out in the parking lot. They were smoking and talking and making jokes. The police officers hid where the two gangs couldn’t see them. The plan was that the police would surround them without them knowing. Then we would go out and talk to them. Then the Police would come out and arrest them.
          We were all incredibly scared. But we knew this is what we had to do. So then we walked out nervously towards The Wolves and The Tigers. We tried to look strong and brave. But seeing as how beat up we were it was hard to look strong or brave. Then I said trying to sound tough. “ Hey Wolves! Hey Tigers! What’s going on skipping class?! Isn’t that against the rules or something?!”.
            They all stopped talking and looked at us eviley. Then Max and Blair from The Wolves came up to us. Joey and Collen from The Tigers also walked up to us. At that point we were scared to death. Then Joey said “ so? we break rules and laws all the time. It doesn’t matter.” Then Blair grabbed my collar and raised me off the ground a little bit. Then she said “ are you looking to get beat up again?!You know what I think you enjoy us beating you up!”. Then she threw me down. 
         I stood back up rubbing the flakes of gravel off my arms. Than Angel said “ are you guys ever worried about getting caught? You know breaking the law, killing people, beating people up, etc.!”. Both gangs laughed then Max said “ that would never happen because everyone's too scared of us to report us. We know for fact you would never report us. Because as you know if you did. We would kill you all slowly!”.
       They all laughed evilly for several seconds.

             Chapter 5: The Battle Field 
       Ella then looked very nervous then said “ well as it turns out we did kinda report all of you!”. They all then stopped laughing then Blair said “ really?! well then you just signed your death sentence.” Then all the police officers walked out with their guns pointed at them ready to fire. Then Officer johnson said “ put your hands in the air and drop all weapons! Now!”. 

      ( Angel will continue the story now.Just so you know. Each of us will tell parts of the story)

    Hi guys it’s Angel. Now let’s continue the story. Now where were we? Oh yeah the Police had just come out pointing their guns. Max and the other Wolves and tigers laughed. Then Joey said “ you really think we would listen to you?! You really think we aren’t armed?!”. Then all of The Wolves and all of The Tigers took out guns and knives. 
        The police then walked closer and one of the police officers said “ drop your weapons, we don’t want to have to shoot.” Both gangs laughed we were all scared out of our minds wondering what the outcome of this would be. Then Blair laughed and then said “ shoot all you want”. Then she shot the officer who had just spoken. He fell to the hard parking lot floor. He died a few seconds later. Then the parking lot went into a full out war. The one big scary problem was that the four of us had no weapons and we were all weak. We also we not very good at fighting. 
        We then ran to try to find a hiding place. We ran around people dodged bullets and knives. We also had to avoid clenched fists. As we ran we got cut and punched. We luckily didn’t get shot just yet. Then we got separated I was running with Jasmine now. Ella was on her own. Lilly was also on her own.
        I had no idea what to do i looked around. I saw five out of thirteen police officers on the ground dead. Two injured police officers. One of the Tigers were dead. One of the Wolves were also dead. I then said “ Jasmine look around you do you see Lilly or Ella?”. We both looked around I saw Ella a little bit away she was fighting Collen. 
      Who was one of the Tigers. Ella was barely holding up. She was close but not close enough. We couldn’t go help her without getting killed. Then Jasmine said “ um I can’t see Lilly!!!”. I nodded then looked in front of me. It was too late the bullet was to close. Way to close. I froze in terror then right before the bullet hit me. Jasmine jumped in front of me. The bullet hit her when it was supposed to hit me. I screamed in terror as Jasmine hit the gravel floor of the parking lot.
        I then sat down beside her. I was so so so scared. I knew Jasmine might be dead. I then started checking her making sure she was alive. Sweat was pouring down my back and arms and face. Then everything slowed down around me. It looked like everyone was fighting in slow motion. Then I closed my eyes hoping Jasmine was alive I checked her again and again. Then everything sped up and I realized that my best friend in the whole world. My very first friend was dead. Then I held Jasmine in my arms. I was crying harder than I ever had. 
         Even though in the back of my head I knew she wanted to die. I still hated the fact that she died I hated the fact that for once in Jasmine’s life she got what she wanted. She wanted to die and now she had. Then she felt a gun pressed against her head. Then Angel swallowed and said “ who is behind me?”. I heard a boy’s voice laugh and said “ it’s Max your worst nightmare!”.
       I then realized that my life was worth nothing and I didn’t care if Max killed me or not. Then I said “ give me the gun!”. Max laughed and said “ and why would I do that? So you can kill me!”. I shook my head and said “ no I am not going to kill you. I promise! Just give me the Gun!!!”.
       Something in my voice got to Max and he then handed me the gun. Then he said “ you better not kill me or my gang.” I nodded then I yelled out “GOODBYE ELLA AND LILLY!!!”. Then I saw Ella and Lilly stop what they were doing. They both looked at me. Then they both ran over pushing people out of the way. Then they both yelled “DON’T DO IT ANGEL! DON’T YOU DARE!”. I shook my head then when they were a few feet in front of me I said “ I’m sorry”.
        Then I pointed the gun at my head and pulled the trigger. Ella and Lilly screamed and Max laughed. All I could see was the most horrible times of my life. Playing in my head. All the times I got beat up by my dad or one of the gangs. All the times I got teased. Then everything went dark then my horrible life was over. And I was dead. I fell over on to the ground. 
    ( I am Ella and I will continue the story now)
      Lilly and I ran over to where Max was standing and where Jasmine and Angel were dead on the ground. Max laughed and walked away to go fight a police officer. We both sat next to Jasmine and Angel. We held them in our arms and cried harder than we ever had before. As if our lives weren’t bad enough now two of our best friends had died. Jasmine had been murder she also had sacrificed herself. Angel had killed herself right in front of our eyes.
            I felt so badly for both of them there lives were dark and horrible and rough. Maybe even harder than ours. We sat there with our two best friends dead in our arms. We sat there for what seemed like hours. But it had really been only a few minutes. Then it was over we looked around us. We saw a lot of Police officers and Gang members on the ground dead. But the remaining few had been moved into police cars and were being taken away. By that time a lot of the other students at the school had came outside to see what all the gunfire and screams were about.
         Then Mrs. Harris ran outside and ran over to Officer Johnson. She then said “ what on earth is going on?! I was in a meeting then I heard screams and gunfire. What the Hell is going on?”. Officer Johnson sighed he had a cut on his cheek which was bleeding. He was also very tired then he said “ well four of your brave students reported The Wolves and The Tigers. So we came here and it ended up turning into an all out war.
        A few police officers and gang members died. The rest of the gang members were arrested. Also Jasmine and Angel died during the fight. Jasmine jumped in front of Angel when someone tried to kill her. Jasmine then got hit and died. Then Angel shot herself. I am so sorry!”. Mrs. Harris gasped then said “ oh my god that that is horrible! Is Ella and Lilly alright?”. Officer johnson shrugged and said “ well they are very sad and injured but other then that. They are fine.”
           Then two police officers walked over with body bags. Then one of them looked at Lilly and I then said. “ I am so so sorry for your loss girls! But we need to take them away now. We will make sure they have a funeral.” We both tried to stop crying but we couldn’t. We both nodded and then they put Jasmine and Angel in body bags and took them away.
         Then we stood up and walked over to Officer Johnson and Mrs.Harris. Mrs.Harris and Officer Johnson looked concerned and upset then. Officer Johnson said “ I’m so sorry for your lost girls!”. Mrs.Harris nodded and said “ I am so sorry girls!”. We both nodded then we saw Maggie and her evil side kicks Macey and Maya. Walk towards us then Maggie smiled evilly and said “ boo hoo the gay and transgender freaks lost their besties. Who cares?!” 
        We then glared at them then something happened that we never ever ever ever thought would happen. Macey stepped forward and faced Maggie. Then she said “ I care, and they aren’t freaks they are just people. Good people! I am sick and tired of being afraid of you Maggie! You are such a bitch. I hate being one of your side kicks. There is nothing wrong with being transgender or gay. I hate bullying people like Ella or her friends who are just like me. I am gay and I have had a crush on Ella for a very long time.I hate teasing the girl I’m in love with.”
        Everyone’s mouths dropped then Maggie said “ how dare you leave me! How dare you lie to me you gay freak!”. Macey rolled her eyes then turned around to face Ella and Lilly. She smiled then sighed and said “ I am so so sorry for your lose. I am also sorry for how I’ve treated you. I just was afraid to be who I am and to stand up to Maggie. But I thought if you guys can stand up to us, The Wolves, and The Tigers. Then I could stand up to Maggie. Oh and Ella I really hope you feel the same way about me like how I feel about you.I love you Ella!”.
          Ella smiled even though she was still crying. Then she said “ I never told anyone this but for the past year and a half. I loved and hated you. but now I just love you.” Macey smiled then stepped closer to Ella and kissed her. Everyone but Maggie and Maya clapped. Then Ella said “ will you be my girlfriend?”. Macey nodded then kissed her again.

           Chapter 6: Jasmine’s and Angel’s Funeral 
      ( Hi guys it’s Lilly I am now continuing the last part of the story.)

       Anyway it had been two weeks since the big fight at the school parking lot. Today was the day of Angel and Jasmine’s funeral. Ella and I were still living with Lucy the manager StarBucks. Then we got up and got dressed in these black dresses that Macey had given us. We then drove over to Macey's in my car to pick her up.
        We got there ten minutes later. I waited in the car while Ella went to the front door. She then knocked at the door and Macey opened it. Macey smiled then said “ you know I love that I finally am me. I also love being with you. I love you!”. Ella smiled then kissed Macey then said “ I love you to. We need to go now. Do you want to get breakfast before the funeral?”.
       Macey nodded then said “ yeah, oh and you look amazing by the way!”. Ella smiled then said “ you look amazing to!”. They both smiled and got into the car. Then we went into the StarBucks where Lucy worked. We ate breakfast. Ella frowned then said “ I wish Jasmine and Angel were with us! I miss them so much! They didn’t deserve to die.” I nodded then we both started crying. Macey frowned and started rubbing both of our backs. She then said “ I am so sorry to they didn’t deserve to die. They were great girls. But today is to remember and mourn them.”
        Ella and I sniffled then I said “ let’s get to the funeral”. Then Macey said “ where is the funeral anyway?”. Ella smiled and said “ it’s at the park where we hanged out. No one from school ever hangs out there. So we are safe. Macey nodded then said “ let’s go”. Ella nodded then we left.
        When we got to the park there were police Officers and Mrs.Harris and Lucy. We walked up then we saw a wooden block with a microphone on it. We also saw a picture of Angel. We also saw another picture of Jasmine. Then Mrs.Harris stepped onto the block and spoke into the microphone and said. “Hi there everyone today we are here to remember two girls. Who were brave and kind. They both died horrible deaths. But they are both very special people and good students. Even though very little people see it. So I would like to invite Officer Johnson come up and say a few things.”
         Officer Johnson nodded then said “ thank you for coming everyone. Jasmine and Angel were two of the bravest girls I have ever met. They were both great girls. I barely knew them but I knew they were great people just like their best friends Ella and Lily. Let’s have a moment of silence and remember Jasmine and Angel.”
         Then everyone looked down and closed their eyes. Then after the moment was over. Officer Johnson he said “ now I would like to invite Lilly to come and speak.” I sighed and sniffled then came up. Tears were going down my face then I said. “ Jasmine and Angel were the only people besides Ella who understood and accepted me for me. They were two of the greatest people I knew. They were kind,brave,understanding,loving,funny and lots of other great friends. I have no idea what I’ll do without them. Now will Ella please come and speak”.
          Ella then walked up and hugged Lilly. Then she said “ I loved them so much as friends. They were two of the best people I knew. I have no idea what I’ll do without them. I’m not really good at speeches and I don’t really know what to say. So will my girlfriend Macey please come up and speak?”.
        Macey nodded then walked to the front and said “ hi everyone I’m Macey. Ever since Jasmine and Angel met me. They hated me and I was forced to pretend to hate them. They never knew that I was forced to be mean to them. They never knew that I hated Maggie and Maya.She never knew that I was gay. But I just wanted to say that those girls were some of the nicest sweetest girls. I ever met and I will always remember them.”
          After the funeral we all visited Jasmine and Angel’s graves. Once we finished we all went home. Then we went to sleep because we were very tired and sad.

            That was the end of our book. :(
           Signed: Ella & Lilly   
            
                    
       

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